When you hear about her for the first
time, you are out with friends. You
imagine first his face, that closed profile
that never opened for you, even after
trying every key. Twice. You imagine
her. You wonder if you could have been
friends, but the idea of that happening
now is like chewing on asphalt. You’d
rather get a root canal. You’d rather get
several. You’d rather be laying in a ditch
on the side of the road, unconscious.
You imagine them together, in bed,
fucking, him telling her things he used
to tell you and her believing every
last delicious word. He could have
been a poet. You wonder if he means
them this time. You think about giving
him a call, leaving him a drunk voice
mail with cigarettes on your breath and
a cherry hidden beneath your tongue.
You imagine revenge as a person,
sneaking into his home and cutting her
hair and dumping the strands down the
laundry chute. You decide that a broken
heart is a lot like getting your hair cut
and the years spent waiting for both to
grow back—shiny, undisturbed, new—
is the kind of vacation they advertise
in the magazines. You call, instead,
your hairstylist. You book the flight.
Every lock of hair sheared off is a
mixed drink on a beach somewhere.
When you see him later that day on
the street, there is no streak of
recognition on his face. You leave a
strand of your hair on his jacket as the
light turns green. Pray she finds it.